В колонках играет - ViStancia- ''K Zvezdam.'' Настроение сейчас - nu, mojet uje i poumnela lol.Lots of new stuff to tell my readers, if I have any, hopefully someone's actually reading this. lol I should be thankful for Asya, & her persistence to drag me out of the house. success!!! I whine & complain, & act intolerably stubborn, but at the end of the day I know I'd rather be out with my friends having fun than sit home eating marshmallows- pretending I'm doing something important. Last time Yana & Asya joined forces & got me out, which was this Sat., I met the funniest kid. It was him & two of his other friends, one which was drunk, the second one just wanted to get the hell outta there already. on takoi ''nu davai uje viberi odnu i poshli'' I'm like ''yeah, bye Asya =)'' He's like alright I'm gonna go catch up with him, prohodit chas, on vse stoit. lol Voobshem, it all started with me, I don't know, guess its my talent to get into things, things that concern me, things that don't concern me, kakaya raznica, da? lol Asya, Yana, & I were taking pics, so he offered to take it for us. Yana being on her drill hunt of course got excited. I knew he looked familiar, I'm like Asya that's the kid from the soccer game, no doubt. Of course me being the one with my over the top- beyond the border crazy ideas, Yana & Asya already decided I should ask him if he knows my ex bf to start the convo. So I come up to him like a crazy person (that I am) I'm like ''do you know Nikita?'' He's like ''yeah. cool guy'', I'm like ''nice to meet you, I'm the ''cool guy's ex gf'' In the next five minutes kid manages to get his # from me, calls him up, asks where he is, & bam. He's like he's there, doing this, with them. I'm like thanks? I didn't ask, but that would really do. I don't know why he did it, what's in it for him, but I did appreciate it. Then we just went on talking about stupid stuff. On simpoti4niy, funny, outgoing, someone Asya & I would call the ''clown'' type, THOSE are the ones I usually fall for. Rarely quiet, never shy, usually conceited, & most of the time act like assholes. A on immeno takoe vpi4etlenie i proizvel, not that it matters, I'm not really attracted to him, & it's not my role to go out with my ex's friends. Don't do that shit most girl like to. Yana already in a screwed up relationship, now wants to try it with this kid, whose name is Vlad btw. I told her, thats not going from unhealthy to a good relationship. It's not moving anywhere close to up, eta nazivaetsa stoyat' na meste. I can tell in the hr that I spoke to him that he- if not a player, but definitely not a guy who'd make his gf happy. He's hilarious to be around with, but I'd stop there if I was her. Her choice tho.
Today, my morning ''breakfast'' consisted of: one orange, two peaches, & 3 marshmallows. Then my day was a lil, walk, jog, & run. All the way from Brighton Beach, Asya, Vitaliy, & I walked to Ceaser's Bay. Met up with my OTHER EX & walked to the Verrezzano, (& back.) lol I know all the answer, to many, many questions. I can assume right now, & be 99.9% right that Kostya's acting like a 15 yr old (no offense to 15 yr olds out there) kid that is angry @ the world. He was dumped, wasn't wanted back after a couple of failed attempt, & when he talked on aim & I got what I wanted to hear, that he agreed to talk to me, & be somewhat friends, I forgot about him the next day. I like the hunt, esli mne ne interesno I find something else more interesting & time consuming, & valuable. So basically us meeting up was full of good comebacks, not insults, jokes, & comebacks, I think all my friends will agree that I'm good when it comes to comebacks. I guess me talking to my other ex bf on the phone for half of the time got to him. I was talking to HIS best friend about how to get back with my ex, & I got good advice. Hey, honestly THAT would piss me off, but I wouldn't show it & act like I'm 5 again. He payed me more attention that I expected, ''Lena nobody asked you, Lena go see your ex, just go already, Asya convince her to go.'' He's standing on the rocks asking MY best friend to join him, claiming that he can't climb back up without her... I'm like okay, two, even three lol, can play this game. I'm like ''Asya, if I go will you?'' I don't care I've climbed worse than rocks before, 4to so mnoi budet?... Kostya's like: ''Oh no, I'm coming back, it's okay I can climb back up myself.'' or ''I just wanted Asya, not you.'' Near the water: Asya's telling me to look @ the view, I'm like ''I can't see'', I'm like ''Kostya, move out the way, will ya? Your big head is blocking my view.'' On tak razozlisya, he's like ''stfu, nobody asked you.'' THE best one was when we were coming back & he met up with Alik... (i po4emuto daje Alik na menya normal'no reagiruet) Kostya's like ''Asya, Asya's like an angel, this one, lo0k at her, like oh god.'' Alik ignored that & made a comment about Kostya's ''white'' hat, which made me look his way, & notice that the whole back of that ''white'' has was no longer white... I'm like ''Kostya, are you sure your hat is white?'' I'm like ''gde ti bil???, I think you should flip it & double check if it's still white =]'' (& NO, I didn't do a thing to it.) He looks at it, & he's standing there mad embarrassed, I start laughing!!!..... To which Kostya HAD to say. ''wtf are you laughing about?'' Asya & I left, I kinda got bored, zaebal. I got home, & realized my feet needed a long shower they were all dirty, well of course, I wore flipflops. I ran in them too, so not I have like a blister, but it's not, cause I was taking a shower & I thought I saw blood, but it wasn't washing off, so it's like internal bleeding =[ my feet REALLY hurt.
...I actually thought if he tried something, which his stupid pride, & stupidity (more stupidity) didn't let, I'd bubble with him. Just because I have nothing better to do, besides there's no feelings, then I'd just leave him. I was going to do that to my other ex, the most recent one, but that was for purely revenge, not pleasure, lol. The difference is, it would hurt him to know he got used, & then dumped. Because he did let his stupid stuck up friend threaten me so I think I have a full 100% right to use him in any kind of way. But pope, its questionable, who's using who, ya know?
This is actually the first time I didn't come straight up, & say ''you're wrong, you hurt me, apologize & well work it out.'' Something made me take the other road, that I never thought about before, just pure revenge, THAT'S HOW HURT I REALLY WAS. I was a little scared, that it would just be like using myself, but if guys can do it, girls can to, & I definitely can. At times, rarely, I felt it was od, & I don't want to hurt him like that. But at other times, I felt that if he saw nothing wrong in what he did, then I'll do it. Ya ustala govorit' whats wrong & right. It's like that song by ViStancia, ''...nejeli sobstvenie promahi,ya tak ustal, zame4at' za vsemi, vse to 4to za soboi ne zame4al. So, I'm not saying I did everything right, & nothing wrong. But people that are close to me should know better not to hurt me like that. I guess it was because I didn't call right away, & didn't say right away what was wrong, actually I never said anything was wrong at all, we just didn't talk for 3 days. Ya dumala on sam poimet that because of Alex, he lost me, he would call & apologize, ya sama nehotela davat' nikkih podskazok, it was so simple, but no... So that plan just popped up, I guess to Yana's influence lol. Didn't go through with it tho, for a couple of reasons, nasil'no mil ne budesh, I went as far as my crazy side would go, but he didn't fall for it completely. I guess there's two reasons why it wasn't meant to happen this way. First off, it's enough pain for him, I shouldn't hurt him anymore, we're completely even. Second, I wouldn't be able to just leave, I'd feel used, myself, & I would probably cry & ask if he loves me, this time really cry. I'm too emotional for these kinda things, & if Yana's able to do it, I'm not. She doesn't have to go out with her ex or whoever he is to her now, or ever was. She bubbles with him, & leaves, & life is all good again. I can't.