"..and nobody knows where you can go
Or what does it mean
is it a dreamBright eyes
Burning like fire
Bright eyes
How can you close and fail
How can the eyes that burned so brightly
Suddenly turn so pale
Bright eyes Is it a kind of shadow
Reaching over the hill
Wandering over the hills unseen
Or is it a dreamThere's a high wind in the trees
A cold sound in the air
And nobody knows where you can go
And where do you start
into the darkBright eyes
Burning like fire
Bright eyes
How can you close and fail
How can the eyes that burned so brightly
Suddenly grow so pale
Bright eyes"(c)

hilarious.

More than my Sega or sleep or other boy things. More than even my dog. It's private. And alone. No interruptions. Bus, train, plane, taxi, bed. A bullet in the head. Without a walkman travel is awkward. Pretend pretend. Smile and say what you don't mean to some fat piggy pork next to you. Nag. Agree with stupidity. Be politically in-correct. Whatever it takes to shut them up. Or forever argue. No one likes eachother anyway. Admit it. If you can't respect yourself how can you respect a single living thing?

Walkman makes silence bearable. Makes the silence inside bearable. Only donkeys and Essex Man convince themselves that they have something in common with the stranger sat next door. Music is more than a fuck; more soul, more passion. A local anaesthetic to take the pain away.

We are all worms, trivial little worms. But in Walkman world I am apart from everyone. I have voices in my head. Wild Horses and Tart Tart! Twentieth century technology I love you. Schools dress you in grey and you never know why till you leave. Music is the only difference. Adolescence = spend whole evenings making conversation and never say what I want.

With sound nothing matters, nothing touches, nothing remains. Read a book, maybe. Everyone comes to their personal Soma someday, I hope. Young boys find asylum in cunt, ass, drink, drugs, clothes, car, hair cuts, sport, money, holidays, violence but mostly each other. Lustful little dogs. Music elevates. I don't bother taping records that make you want to do anything. Sat next to a lagered, long haired, spotty ginger tom who thinks he's Lars Ulrich puts you off motion and air drumming forever. I only listen to records that make you all there and not move. And feel sorry for myself. Self pity is the curse of the white male.

Aids, War in Bosnia, Ethnic Cleansing, Heart Disease might kill my generation in a decades time but self pity has killed our desire forever. Most of us already. In the Spanish Civil War a generation left home to fight for ideology. My generation can barely get out of bed. I wish I could truly desire world peace, emancipation, animal rights, unrestricted abortion. But I play my tapes first. Yesterday and Get Me and Sweet Emotion like everyone else. No faith, no God.

The only drive we have is self hate. We tattoo skin and pierce our bodies because we hate ourselves. We drink, take drugs, because we want to forget who we are, what we did, what happened. We are the truly bored. We look at celluloid and see cellulite. We wish we had bodies like Brad Pitt, smiles like Keanu Reeves. We know we never will. So give me a burger and let me play my tape and what do I care.

My generation - don't really care about a thing. Some people say things like Tories Out! What does it actually mean? I understand handbags and glad rags, The Cross, The Rain Song, Lets Get It On. Take it all away for C90 salvation. Let's forget mirrors and scales. Ugliness and self loathing. Music is truth. Solace - sometimes the only thing that makes sense.

BBC2 lays a guilt trip every Newsnight. They say "ban Romper Stomper" and think they've saved the f****** planet. Just scraps of words, Censorshit. All rooms are the same temperature these days. All air smells the same. I never hear about that on the Late Show. So the only difference between you and the multitude egg shell white and antiseptic seats is what's playing in your head. You can't even pretend to read anymore. Someone always finds Dennis Cooper or Easton Ellis offensive. Or scorns you for buying the sun - Liberals are so fun and free these days. I love my Walkman because it cost me money. There is no emotional satisfaction unless you pay for it. Natural doesn't count. Going for a walk without a Walkman is fake. Without noise it is pointless. You can't pretend to feel safe with birds singing. Dulling melancholy. So thank you Mr Sony (re-typed whilst playing a C90 compilation) 
 

1993-1994
____________________

I never spend my evenings making conversations. ARE YOU JEALOUS, RICHEY?

You would have liked i-pod 

Настроение сейчас - placid

 

It is easy to shield the outer body from poisoned arrows, 
but it is impossible to shield the mind from the poisoned darts that 
originate within itself. 
Greed, anger, foolishness and the infatuations of egoism - 
these four poisoned darts originate within

quote by: amida buddha
quoted in: sleeve of the holy bible[msp] 

Kevin Carter
South African news photographer.

mentioned in kevin carter lyrics

 

Кевин Картер стал известен после своей фотографии погибающей от голода девочки в Судане, к которой приближался стервятник. Что случилось с девочкой после этого, выжила она или нет, не знает никто, даже сам Кевин Картер, поскольку он покинул место съёмки сразу после фотографирования. За эту фотографию он получил Пулитцеровскую премию. Через два месяца после получения премии Кевин Картер покончил жизнь самоубийством.

 In 1993, he went to Sudan to capture images of that nation's dismal and unending civil war. One of the pictures he took was of a starving little girl: she had collapsed in the bush, and a vulture nearby seemed to be waiting for her to die. The child was crawling towards Unated Nations food camp, located a kilometer away.

Кастро, как всегда в военной форме, появился на балконе Karl Marx Theatre за полчаса до начала концерта, пробыл до самого конца и стоя аплодировал, когда Брэдфилд посвятил одну из новых песен — "Baby Elian" — Элиану Гонсалесу (Elian Gonzalez), кубинскому мальчику, депортированному не так давно из США на родину.

Музыканты еще сказали, что очень хотели бы познакомиться с Фиделем Кастро. Они были представлены кубинскому президенту перед концертом, а на следующий день вместе с ним отобедали. 

Настроение сейчас - кофе с корицей

 

В колонках играет - Massive Attack

там-парам-парам...

именинная пирушка!

фото:

*люблю))) спасибо, дорогие*..

В колонках играет - DM
Настроение сейчас - алюминиевые ложки!
 

черт возьми,как важно это было!