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Суббота, 24 Февраля 2007 г. 12:18 (ссылка)
first: to control the feelings is easy
did it million and billion times.
not to show, resist, hide, kill, destroy and strangle a new-born feeling is like killing a man. hard to do first time in your life. then - it becomes habit
and poor baby, she'll never know that he likes her, may be just her body, may be the face, may be the way she moves, speaks, may be just the way she is..
I said easy, ya, you are getting used, but, fuck! it's painful to do so all the time
not the acute pain when the one does it for the first time, but persistent pain, a heavy weight somewhere inside - in your lungs, heart and above stomach
Ya! it's physical enough even to locate it
to show feelings? damn, I knew people who could jump from the bridge, but would never come and speak to the girl first
why? most of them just tried to do that, once or twice, may be more times and...
they failed. they were politely (or not so) sent to hell, dismissed, rejected, call it whatever you like
sure, probably they hadn't had enough experience or... they weren't bold enough
sure, obvious, you have to be bold
but, look, the guy is nice, he believes that the women are tender nice perfect creatures, angels...
nothing to laugh about - he was raised like that
he belives in the holiness of the feeling, love, first kiss and other thing which prove to be holy only in the books
well he goes and tries to speak with a REAL girl with his naive outlook
hm... looks like he's stupid and doesn't know how to speak to the woman - that's what a girl will think or may be say
so he fails... once, twice, more, again and again
he's confused, he doesn't belive in himself anymore, he's lost and he's afraid to try
now, if he still tries, he is so tense mentally that he merely doesn't know what to say
sorry, lad, you are dismissed. automatically. cause women like to see easy manner, cosy chat about nothing and (hey, no offence here) impudence...
he can't, sorry, somewhere inside he still has those illusions about tender women's hearts, angels, pink colors and flowers
well, he's dismissed for life now)))
I knew a guy who was feeling so down because of all those futile efforts, that he started believing he was gay.
funny part: he went to a gay club to make sure. so a guy (or I should say a gay) comes and speaks to him nicely, invites him to his place. now the final shot: the gay gets completely naked, and my friend sits in the chair with his cloth on and understands that he is not a gay...)
well back to the main topic and long story short: the guy must not have any nice illusion about women, neither about himself. must not believe in princesses and angels, he just have to go, be bold, take her and bring to bed.
sounds rude. yeah, I agree, hard to accept that you are about to fuck your angel, not make love or anything.
sorry, that's the only therapy that can help a nice (or he was nice) young lad
again, I never said women were horrible monsters drinking the warm blood from the hearts of the innocent boys
that's just the way it works
and doesn't make me like or want women less. it was nature who decided for me that I must like them. so I do ;)
hope your bored-proof vest was on)