Da mne tiajelo perejivat' vse eto chto mejdu nami proishodit. No kogda ya govoru s toboi mne stanovitsa legche, ya opiat' doveriau tebe, mne snova hochetsa togo chto u nas bilo v proshlom , kogda mi sushestvovali tol'ko drug dlia druga.. no eto je v proshlom, seichas vse izmenilos' i tvoe otnoshenie i moe, ti bil prav : mi poteriali doverie. Tol'ko ya ne ponimau pochemu ti ne doveriaesh mne, ved' po sravneniu s toboi ya voobshe chista kak angel.. pust' daje padshii... ya nikogda ne otvorachivalas' ot tebia.
no ya prosto ne ponimau pochemu ti stol'ko vsego skrivaesh ot menia... eto tak ne chestno po otnoshenu ko mne i voobshe k nashei lubvi, ili k tomu chto ot nee ostalos'.. ti je sam hotel bit' chestnim i otkritim.. pochemu togda eto odnostoroniaya igra???.... ya voobshe ne hochu nikakih igr, mi je ne deti uje, zachem ti vse eto delaesh, mne je bol'no ot etogo, ti prosto real'no zadevaesh menia.. Zachem tebe oni, kogda est' ya...?????

blia, ya ne ponimau zachem vrat', pochemu ne skazat' pravdu, daje esli ona gor'kaya? ya je prosila bit' chestnim i otkrovennm. zachem eto vse, kakoi v etom smisl? ti dumaesh etoi loj'u ti prikrivaesh sebia? net, ti toka delaesh huje. chego ti dobivaeshsa? stat' luchshe ili huje i v ch'ih glazah? v moih ili svoih? a voobshe to ya tebe ne vajna uje, i ne nado mne vrat' vse bol'she i bolshe, ya ne mogu eto vse tak prosto cherez sebia propuskat'.
blin, ya ne dumala chto ti tak konkretno zasiadesh vo mne, ti v moih misliah postoyanno, no real'nost' menia ubivaet. ya poniala chto samoe hudshee eto razocharovivatsa v ludiah, osobenno esli oni dorogi tebe... ili hotia bi znachili chto-to v jizni. a ti imel znachenie, no shas ya ne znau kak tebia nazvat'.. ti prosto bol' vo mne ot kotoroi ya pitaus' izbavitsa
mne jal' chto vse tak vishlo, chto ya tebe sdelala chtobi ti takoe tvoril so mnoi?
zachem zachem zachem zachem zachem zachem zachem???????zachem eta loj???????
a ya prosto dura chto povelas' na tebia
za vse nado platit'

Love is an irrisistable desire to be irresistably desired

The light was so pure
My eyes so innocent
I thought he was real
I thought he would save me
Then came the day when it all fell apart
and i was giften with a man who mended my broken heart
he showed me a world that i never thought of before
somthing i craved i was begging him for more
He walked me through his world
till i finally learned it all
He took me by the hand
and said "you know, its time to fall"
My white wings turn dark so much
Hands decompose when they try to touch
streams of tears distort my face
He watches me fall and stands in his place
I look up at him hovering above
and i look into those eyes and i feel his love
He flies down to me and gathers me up
He holds me back to sip the eternal cup
My energy returns and i can breathe again
Being alive i want to know when
I look up to him
My innocence full slain
I confide in him
fearing i'm insane
"You are my love" he whispers to me
in this world its the only way to be free