..But today I found a good description of what I try to learn and do learn...
there was a moment tonight when Yana asked me "not to fall into the hell".
And I told her: "I'm not falling... I've been learning to levitate, and right now I am".
I learn to levitate above the abyss.
To stay up above and to slowly move back towards the continent, towards the solid ground.
To observe the emotions that come. To watch, calm and attentive, the demons dance around my burning heart.
Not to join them. Not to feed the wrong wolf, not to believe him.
Stay on the side of yourself.