That pain inside my head...it's killing me sometimes.

It feels like i don't know what to do with my thoughts, my life, my feelings anymore.

I don't know what i should dream about. What should i want...Who i must be looking for...Should i or not, by the way?

I'm so confused with all that crap...Like we are mixed together (me and my brain) in a some kind of warm pure...and both of us can't do what we have to do anymore: i can't live, my brain can't think.

My heart is also hurt. But i'm mad at this stupid felt-in-ove-bitch-heart, so i just don't talk to my heart right now. Fuck it.

Seems like i'm in the center of depression, but a behave and feel like nothing happen. I do my stuff every day and i prefer not to think about tomorrow today. I'll think about it even not tomorrow. Someday. Maybe. If i'll be in the right mood)

And some things are easier to say in english. Maybe my diary will be english versioned for a while.

Be patient, use google translator or enjoy your english practice)