'Let's not meet for a while.'... Nonsense! Is it really possible to say such a thing to your beloved? Why? you even can't explain your behaviour. Today I've decided that I'm really the one to blame. I read an article... Did I really pay too much attention to you? Maybe this was the reason that you have got tired? I wonder what have you got tired of? me? I really don't understand what I was doing wrong. I must change myself back to that cheerful, naive and proud girl that I was in April. Well, I am such a girl now but... more like an adult, less cheerful and too yielding. 
I should reconsider my behaviour.

It seems to me that I feel better after telling this in my note :)