For the first time in many months I spent a time to read the messages that I post here. It´s a time that I stopped my emotions. I think I was looking for a reason to live, only. Nowadays I am waiting for Bea and I dream to show my country t her. Problem is that Brazil is so big, maybe I´ll have no time to show her everything that I´d like to. Life is interesting...all I had imagined for Anna, I will give to Bea. At least she likes me and I am so happy for. My goodness! she´s so sweet. She´s like a poem without words; an angel without wings. But I know she doesn´t love me and maybe will never do. Even knowing this truth, I wont to cry; though I know that, tears for sadness drop more.