Once more I am in love for someone and once more she asks me for be strong and forget her. I think is my fate to be alone. There´s no question without answer; I always asked to myself why had I known Anna. She was a perfect link for I come until Bea. Everybody has a past and now my one blames me and I take the risk to lose, once more, woman that I love. I simply cant to believe that is happening again. I have no strengh to fight. Bea, I need you. Anna doesn´t compare to you. I was blind for her, just like you were for you ex-h. Please, forgive me for having kept on this crazy and stupid secreat. It was difficult to talk about it just like it was for you to do about the reason for which you got marriage. I am ashamed for my past and this diary cannot stand anymore. It means a period that I didn´t live. I wasted my time waiting for a small-hearted and empty-minded girl and I found a wonderful woman. Bea, your is the love that every men looks for. I have found it and I cannot lose it anymore.