LeNnY15200 (12:20:19 AM): wats up...
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:02 AM): nothing.
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:12 AM): youre so desprate 2 find me, Im invis.
LeNnY15200 (12:21:05 AM): i knew u were invisible...
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:31 AM): hmmm..
LeNnY15200 (12:21:14 AM): i see that u and nik got back together
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:46 AM): why am I not surprised?
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:53 AM): so if you see why are you imin me?
LeNnY15200 (12:21:50 AM): w.e.
LeNnY15200 (12:21:50 AM): bye
Fire Of Eternity (12:21:15 AM): bye.



There was so no point in that. I do not intend on talking to someone who thought he was only right & never wrong, & who was giving me ''advice'' he KNEW was UNNECESSARY. point blank.


In any case, I feel what I feel, & I feel BAD. Sometimes all you think about is what you want, & to get what you want. But now that I got it I think of how he must feel, I didn't give him much of a choice between ''yes'' & ''no'' :-(
So I took everything back, but he refuses to change his mind. It's bad for both of us if he just feels guilty or bad, but I created this problem myself by not really giving him a choice to begin with. Thinking ''I'll get what I want even if it means stepping over heads'', never works! Because then come the complications like a guilty conscience, & we all know that is more than enough to bother oneself. Though I will admit, that was my ''worst case scenario plan'' from the beginning, I never thought that actually it working would even bother me. I mean even I would feel better if I knew he CHOSE to be with me out of love, not because of my stupid fool-proof tactics! =(
I really hope he goes to the prom with me, there's no sense in going there without an actual date, & I don't consider going with a guy friend- an actual date. Problem is I already got my pretty red dress, & gold heels...but I don't know how he's gonna get the money before the 15th- which is the ACTUAL prom. :-(


A lil off topic...but I was watching the stories of famous parents' kids. It's so ironic how their parent would do anything for their kids NOT to go into show business, yet they continue doing it themselves...while talking about drugs, fakes, & lies.