Such pacification … seems, that everything goes to the end … is a sign of time, a sign of winter …
Today is fine even in spite of the fact, that there is no you in it. It is fine with dreams about you. Do not upset me more, … such blizzard -will not thaw soon …
I am happy … since the early morning, since the first drink of a champagne. My eyes are too opened and too enamoured! Not in you, certainly …. Actually, I don’t care about you …. Minute weakness - too much Honour …
I ask about one thing: recollect everything … Then it was easier to me, I joked with you, not trying to seduce, wrote, not fearing that can be misunderstandings …Before I was myself... I did not know anything about you.
It is a pity that everything has appeared to be so and not differently …. I simply I do not wish to struggle. You can accuse me in cowardice, you can say, that I have surrendered, you can think everything, everything you want … but I do not wish to treat wounded bird when my own ulcers on a surface … I shall not cope with the your poisoned words, with "undesire", “unbelief”, with cry of raven … You are more strong, you are more wiser, and maybe you are more mature … You are disappointed, and I understand you and I even support you in it, and it is terrible... This is a kind murder, as a matter of fact … but I support you! The truth! I understand, that is why I behave so
Do I betray you?