Наверное, в жизни каждого человека бывают такие моменты, когда он не понимает, куда идет, чего хочет добиться в жизни, чем хочет заниматься и хочет ли заниматься чем-то вообще....Я называю такие моменты "моментами временного эмоционального упадка". Ключевое слово в этой фразе - временного. Всем людям нужен отдых, не только физический, но и эмоциональный. Поэтому такие упадки надо расценивать не как черную полосу в жизни, а как шанс отдохнуть от всех мыслей и абстрагироваться от проблем... Самое главное-суметь в нужный момент выйти из этого состояния, собраться с силами, оглядеться вокруг... Улыбнуться новому дню, начать радоваться каждой приятной мелочи и снова встать на путь, ведущий к успеху....=)

Baby here we are

Standing face to face

Just the two of us

Locked in your embrace....

I will give to you the love you seek and moooore....

So what are you waiting for?

I got the love you seek...I got the love you seeeeeek....

Мне постоянно говорят, что я витаю в облаках и надо спуститься на землю.... обычно слышу это от мамы или от знакомых - надо быть серьезнее... мечты - это конечно хорошо, но тебе надо сдать сессию и взяться за ум.

да да, они конечно правы, но если мне не хочется?

если мне хочется путешествовать по миру, описывать свои впечатления в дневнике и  делать невероятные фотографии?

что, если я человек свободы, независимости, приключений? больше всего на свете я боюсь попасть в этот бесконечный поток суеты, скучной работы и рутины....в то же время я считаю, что каждый день не должен быть праздником, потому что от этого можно быстро устать....

что, если я хочу сидеть сейчас на Монмартре, читать Мопассана на французском и пить кофе с круасаннами, вдыхая воздух Парижа и наслаждаясь этим романтично-меланхоличным состоянием души? 

что, если хочу каждый день гулять по набережным Парижа, слушать Premier love и Rue des etoiles, держа за руку своего любимого человека?

что, если хочу сидеть на пляже в Ницце с 3 лучшими подругами и веселиться всю ночь, разделив на четырех бутылку прекрасного французского вина? 

разве это так плохо - быть неискоренимым романтиком?

  Сижу на подоконнике и наблюдаю, как огромный солнечный шар появляется из-за горизонта, окрашивая небо в кроваво-красный цвет......Величественное здание МГУ словно пронизано солнечным светом, а облака вокруг него образуют нежный, немного размытый ореол....бегу за фотоаппаратом и пытаюсь запечатлеть хотя бы маленький кусочек своих ощущений, чтобы потом поделиться ими....

солнце уже высоко, оно освящает дороги, улицы, деревья, пробуждая весь город и приветствуя новый день.....

я люблю рассвет

люблю закат

люблю дождь и грозу

люблю, когда холодно и можно закутаться в плед, сесть около камина с чашкой горячего какао и мечтать....

мечтать.....

у меня есть мечта.....

и я знаю, что она сбудется. знаю, потому что она просто не может не сбыться!

и каждый раз, смотря на рассвет, я думаю о ней.....о моей мечте.... 

so many things on my mind....
controversial feelings
endless happiness.....endless sadness....endless pain....endless love

staying at my friend's place 4 a sleepover
trying to concentrate on my final english presentation
but one thing keeps crossing my mind over and over again
genuine feelings
they can bring both hapiness and pain....
subtle to see, these feeling can be hardly recognised....
but i have them
for you
and i still can not believe that this is happening to me in reality
living in a dream....
sometimes tender, sometimes passionate, sometimes a bit difficult
but never boring or dull....always exciting....
the only thing I'm afraid of....
that I will wake up one day, finding myself in my room....and realise it was only a dream....
long, romantic....best one i ever had...
will i wake up or will it be an ever-lasting dream?
goose bumps when i think about it

 а я счастлива.

счастлива за тебя и за себя

наконец-то у нас все хорошо

так, как никогда раньше не было

я помню, как ровно год назад мы с тобой встречались и болтали без умолку

обсуждали мальчиков, которые нам нравятся, спрашивали друг у друга совета

плакали, смеялись, ссорились, мирились

а сейчас все по-другому

сейчас лучше

так приятно ощущать, что все хорошо

и радоваться, искренне радоваться за свою подругу

и знать, что она тоже за тебя рада

у нас есть и мы счастливы

поскорее бы тебя увидеть  все рассказать

столько новостей

скучаю

for: Katunya Voronova-Yakovleva (buks)

 AAAAA!!!! It's less than 24 hours til my flight to London!! I can't believe it! 

Right now am working on a video which will be called "happy 4 friends''... will consist of our old photos, photos from Austria, Moscow, kindergarden, Nice etc...and there will be a song ''Acidentally in love'' from the Shrek movie playing on the background:) I've loaded the movie with funny quotations, short stories, jokes etc. which only 4 of us can fully understand...so I hope my best friends gonna like it)) V. g))

 Eating chinese, watching Pride and Prejudice, rereading Sex and the city, wearing MU boxers and pink socks, doing nothing and counting hours til my flight to London!!!))) AM HAPPY:)

days til London: ONE (YAAAAAY!)

days til Austria : 28 (Yaaaaay!)

days til Nice: approximately 178 (Happy anyway!)

Last night I realised. I was such a fool! I have turned down so many nice guys just because of HIM! A vague summer dream which may not  even come true! One guy told me that I've completely changed after this summer - more reserved, cold, nervous....do from now on I'll just go with the flow - hang out with friends, party all night, have the time of my life just to get HIM out of my head!!!!

 1. Alex Petyffer....ouch....going crazy....xx

2. James Franco

3. Mattew Fox 

4. Josh Holloway

5. Jude Law

6. Keanu Reeves

7. Ryan Reynolds

8. Justin T. ( 100% copy of my ex!!!)

9.  Jesse Spenser

10. Gerard Butler 

Take it back to the night we kissed...

You were sober and i was tipsy with your love

with each touch i could have reached the stars above

and your lips were so seductive

I couldn't stop...You're so attractive xxx

blue eyes so deep, i felt like drowning

sunrise in them has started shining

and arms so strong, but kisses tender

i can't resist, i just surrender

to you, my love, it's just a game

a game that's every time the same

my thoughts run back each time i cry

i can not bare this asking why

oh no, my love, i don't regret. My heart is closed, but i'll never forget

 

 keen on this song

You can tell by the way, she walks that she`s my girl 

You can tell by the way, she talks that she rules the world. 

You can see in her eyes that no one is her chain. 

She`s my girl, my supergirl. 

And then she`d say, it`s Ok, I got lost on the way 

but I`m a supergirl, and supergirls don`t cry. 

And then she`d say, it`s alright, I got home late tast night, 

but I`m a supergirl, and supergirls just fly. 

And then she`d say that nothing can go wrong. 

When you`re in love, what can go wrong? 

And then she`d laugh the nightime into day 

pushing her fear further long. 

And then she`d say, it`s Ok, I got lost on the way 

but I`m a supergirl, and supergirls don`t cry. 

And then she`d say, it`s alright, I got home, late last night 

but I`m a supergirl, and supergirls just fly. 

And then she`d shout down the line tell me she`s got no more time 

`cause she`s a supergirl, and supergirls don`t hide. 

And then she`d scream in my face, tell me that leave, leave this place 

`cause she`s a supergirl, and supergirls just fly 

Yes, she`s a supergirl, a supergirl, 

she`s sewing seeds, she`s burning trees 

She`s sewing seeds, she`s burning trees, 

yes, she`s a supergirl, a supergirl, a supergirl, my supergirl..

seems like I'm in trouble again.....

Couple of days ago I caught a cold but still had 2 go to the Uni.....and felt even worse, I was about to fall from my chair while writing an english quiz....And 2morrow is my final  presentation  on business english and i can't even get up from my bed!  So I wrote a letter 2 my teacher and she was like: ah, ok, it's not a problem....you can show your presentation after the exams, during holidays or on Monday!!!!! AAAAAAAAA!!!! But I'm supposed to go 2 London on Sunday and to Austria on holidays! Dilemma: stay in Moscow now (NO LONDON). Or a failed term exam?!!!! My best friends - or not beng kicked out of the university?!!! 

WHAT TO DO?!!!!

That was dillema # 1.

Dilemma # 2.

My french - 21-year-old hottie stil can't get over me! And my feeling for him....well....I like him VM but i keep asking myself one annoyingly simple question: DO I REALLY NEED HIM? We're not going to see each other very often anyway.....

And one quy from Moscow is reaaaaaly into me.....He's nice)) A bit shy, but I'll manage 2 change him) he's 17, very smart and hot.....

So: wait til summer 2 meet my french guy or get my head ot of the clouds and start dating another one? 

don't know what to think....don't know what to do....

i've been crying myself out all night long.....

it never happened 2 me before....

do u believe in love at the first sight? i didn't.....but last sunday changed everything....

i met you and i have finally started 2 smile.....it was enough for me to see your message ....

but again shit happened....

i'm not in the mood to write it down here right now.....

 

heeeey there! Haven't been here for  ages! I'm reeeealy sorry! It's just been such a crazy time....! so i'll just list the major things that had happened 2 me...

1. I have spent the most amazing and most adventurous summer in my life! 3 incredible weeks in Nice, France with my best friends Katy, Nino and Fiona....it's such a long story. dunno what 2 start with, so i guess i'll just leave it there and tell u all about it later....The only thing is: those 3 weeks were the best in my life!!

2. I've entered the MSU- GSBA faculty! I have persued this dream since we've moved 2 Moscow, but now the fact that I'm a student there doesn't seem so appealing 2 me....again - a very long story....

3. I seriously took up photography, I've finished photography courses and now my blue dream is 2 get orders and become a real photographer though I don't have much time 4 that....

4. And the last thing but I guess the most vital 4 me is that I fell in love.....deeply, accidentaly and inevitably....I've been trying 2 fall out of love with him, because there are TOO MANY obsticles which stand on my way...such as - he's 5 years older than me (not a real problem, but 4 my parents it can turn ou 2 be), he has a GF (he doesn't love her anyway) and the worst thing is - he lives in NICE! So now I'm counting days til our next visit there....hope we'll going 2 be together....but a few days ago I've decided 2 start a new life - new principles, new approach 2 the university and relationship....so now my heart is open again and I'm ready 4 new thrilling love stories:) (btw, I guess I have a candidate)

soooo.....7 a.m....should have slept 2night .....but I had 2 do my english homework, which is quite complicated even 4 me!

ohhh, I think today I'm going 2 fall asleep right on the lecture:)  

I feel so untouched

And I want you so much

That I just can't resist you

It's not enough to say that I miss you

I feel so untouched right now

Need you so much somehow

I can't forget you

I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

 La la la la la la la la))) tam dam dam))) ooh wee)) ooh wee)) la la la la la la)))

Tommorow' s gonna be a great day))) my mum and I r goin shopping))) la la la)) i'm gonna buy dozens of shorts, short dresses, tank tops, flip flopps etc....)) cuz IT'S JUST 1 DAY LEFT!!!! and i'll meet Kathy and Nino....ooh...i've missed'em so much! 

There's only one tiny little problem left.....oopsie....I don't know French at all!! looser)))

I'm sure i'll for for the hottest guy in our french school....)

I hope I'll get along with everyone there and won't have falling outs with the girls....)

and i hope i'll live up to my parents' expectations....)

how are u, girls? how's ur summer?))))

 aaaaa!!!!!!!

School is finally OVER!!!!

omg!
I'm so happy

I hope I'm gonna be a student this year !!! 

FREEDOM!!!!

FREEDOM!!!

Freeeeeeeedom!!!!!

la la la!!!!

 

 tommorow.

last exam.

social studies.

wish me luck!

    I guess I can finally feel it....Thank God there's just 3 days till I can finally get away from this city, from the exams, from the teachers and enjoy myself!!!!

    I've got great plans! There are so many things I'm looking forward to....:)

It's a very great sensation of anticipating something that good and knowing that life has so many adventures waiting to unfold in front of me....And I feel all this energy and great emotional state shining through me....:)

(I finally stopped thinking about that naughty guy yesterday....I'll tell you the reason tommorow, am so tired now....:))

There are painting lessons, tennis lessons and dancing lessons waiting for me in Rostov.Apart from the fun I'm gonna have  while going out with my friends there and having driving lessons....)

summer's gonna be great!)))) I am 100% sure....

xoxo

 

     

 I can't really explain it

I'm so into you now, I want to be more than a friend of you now...

I really like what you've done to me

I can't really explain it.....

I'm so into you....

Come on, ma, it's more than a flashin'

I would treded it all, in orderly fashion

My villa in Florida we crashin'

Just off the shore, so you can hear when water be splashin...

I really like what you've done to me....

I can't really exlain it....

I'm so into you....

So into you......

so into you.....

 

 I want to let u go....I do....I'm fed up with my thoughts of you.... So to cheer myself up I decided to make a list called "Summer plans". 

Here it is. This isthe  summer I want to have:

1. Enter the university

2. Fall for a cute italian or french guy and stop thinking about HIM

3. Upgrade my french level in Nice with my best friends

4. Take at least 100  breathtaking photoshoots there 

5. Have my own professional photosession

6. Go to Greece ( my pipe dream since childhood), to the island which was in the movie "The sisterhood of the travelling pants" and "Mamma Mia!"

7. Swim with dolphins

8. Learn how to dive

9. Write a book

to be continued....))

 3 days left until my next exam

fuck

thinking of you

only you

in my head

you spin it round

i wanted to fall in love

it happened

shit

he likes another girl

goose bumps when you're next to me

no air

can't breathe

want u to be here atm

 

p.s; girls, am so sorry for not commenting ur diaries

am sitting for my exams

thinking of him

so sorry

 I am such a silly fool

little foolish girl

who believes in true love.....

I wanted to fall in love

well, it finally happened.....kind of....

i fell for him long time ago

I just didn't want to admit that

fuck

and today....ouch.....he's so sweet

don't know what to do

don't know whether he likes me or not

fuck

stupid stupid stupid

 I give you everything that I am

I'm handin' over everything that I've got

Cause I wanna have a really true love

Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up

Stay up till

Four in the morning and the tears are pouring

And I want to make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time?

Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right.