everything is like wrong and unappropriate. on the second thought, it's fine and .. никакое. one by one, all fellinings about past few weeks in me are blended and done. human relationships, full of cowardness and lies, filthy thoughts and strange expectations about stuff i don't even know why they try to care about, when they clearly can just fuck this madness out of they heads, but they won't. i've started to play this game, and i already hate it. awkward attempts to be someone you aren't, to reach stupid social goals to feel somewhat like human. inhumanity, what the hell with my head, with all people, i can't commincate with them, feel close to someones i want to, all is itchy and spike like, i want to leave this planet and become space milk or something, i want be a human being.