Day is fuck...really...but...I now have some hope that I'll again find some strength in me to fight...ok..let's start again...
Coz...I have no other way..I can't give up..coz in my case giving up means to die.
What in him makes me forgive everything??? and want to get to him more and more??? what is in him???
I think everything I need ))) my smile...I wouldn't smile...if I hadn't his words, pics...if I hadn't him...
He is far away...but near...in my thoughts...actions..in everything! my strength depends on him.
What will life bring? I don't know exactly what...but where - I know /// Wanna exist only there. don't wanna stay. I've decided.
Just give me a chance to end this fuck here...and...no..u will see me..but not for long )))
Today is again smth strange with me. But I know that feeling...disappointment...in myself..and again hate...will smth change?! why am I so weak...he doesn't need me such. crazy..hate myself. take away this feeling from me...
I wanna get to this country...and breath with him one air. What destiny means??? in my life everything.
Let me fight again ... taliking one more chance...can I ???????????