Now i`m sitting here alone up in my room and listening to the music... That lyrics i wrote recently down...this is that i`m listening now... because it better reflects my position now..Yeah, that`s right...
Got!... i don`t know what it`s happening to me now... but i feel so damn bad, so awfull...At this moment i wanna run away somewhere to hide from everyone... to be alone, to fall down to the precipice...to scream to the whole world to although someone hear me... listen to my scremy voice asking `bout help... To fall down and to scream... scream...Shit!... i cannot do anything... i wanna someone to be here close to me... near me... understand me.
i`m willing even to look out of the window and to weap to scream about the pain inside of me...the pain that makes a hole in brain...and not looking at that i am a guy...becauze i`m tired of livin this way...
Now i`m listening "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down. And my tears... are rolling down ourselves...


A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me


Don`t thing i am weak... that`not right... I am strong... but sometimes there r some moments that i cannot controle myself....and now... THIS THE HELL IS AGAIN!