Ja reshila propiarit' svoi dnev...jdu novih druzei zdes'...Tam ya napisala, chto dlya menya glavnoe svoboda i bespripyatstvennost'.I tak budet vsegda! Net eto ne znachit,cto ya hochu jizni bez trudnostei, eto znachit ya boyus' kletki(!).Da kletka - samoe ujasnoe, chto sushestveut v etom mire!Ili net? Pojalui privyazannosti ya boyus' bol'she...Privyazannost' - eto lovushka, virivayas' is kotoroi,ispitivaesh' bol' i nesesh' poteri...
Ya uvlekayus' repom i etot tekst o tom chto bilo davno, poka papa ne uehal v Rossiyu, poka mama ne nashla sebe drugogo, o tom, chto ostalos' teper'.
Izvinite chto na English, esli nado perevedu))):
I just miss my mom & I miss my dad.
They're apart, but they're all i've ever had!
There was a time - we felt like the luckiest family in the world,
But now all pictures of it are nonesense & it feel's so cold...
Everything that i have now - it's foggy memories of that life.
Everyone stay awake from me - I'm hidin' the knife!
I can't be paitient for more!Too much pain around!
P.S.na fotke moya multi-versiya)))
Now I'm standing alone on my old playgrownd...
It's so empty now - no kids - no happiness...
& it's like a mirrow of my fuckin' homeless!!!
Do you see the light? Bright light far away!
That is the family about which we used to say.
You can run,but you'll never catch
The hart of that light & it hurt's so mach!
That time my dad & mom was arguing alot
I was a little chiled - I can't remember what I thought
Now I'm tryna' to see full picture of that
& I know - not much is true of what they used to say.
I can't remember how my father left our house -
That summer was furst time I've been to the south.
& while ma' granny was livin' the flat,
I was locked in my room & cryed on a bed!
That time I've already Known - it's against my will!
But I couldn't do nothing - my future was sealed...
