had beef ,cucumber and baby carrots
also chamoline citrus tea with teaspoon of honey.
went to the city to return the shoes.
had a headache.
not planning to fast until monday.
cant wait for the results after 30 days of paleo.
also ate banana
mozarela smoked cheese
and coconut lady night 3 dandies.
feel stuffed.

For the past month i was gaining an losing.. i cant eat little on my period..fucking period.
prom is in 3 days so im fasting...apple a day..and dry cola or energy drink..you know all the exams.
it is super duper hot now...i live on the beach..well figuritivly speaking..Can't wait until my graduation..no more school..

my bday is today.. and what have i achieved?

so he flew away to St.Pitersburg...and as soon as he comes back i will hand him divorce papers
and if he even dares to make it difficult I will bust his nuts.
gained all weight back but that doesn't matter anymore since i have huge problems other then extra weight
Friends are good
4/20 was good
sauna today
i want to make an expirement and not shop for a year..no food no clothes no shoes no makeup... just using what i have..i have too much.

so he finnaly confessed. he cheated.. few times.. on our bed.so many signs not gonna mention them but it was so clear that he doesn't love me becouse he never said sorry all he said is " i fucked her few times, but you are more fun, move back in" WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!
no remorse at all.
i'm not mad
not sad
i want and don't want to cry.
i won't talk to him any time soon.
I will paint my dissapointments away
I finnaly saw how it is on the other end of the stick. It hurts.

so woke up on time today =) almost
hair a bit greasy from deep conditioning
sore throat still
glass of kefir
tea to be ready
i will meditate the whole week and be on kefir apple diet. =) cleanse the body..free the tample all this shit.
SPRING BREAK IS SOON
MY BDAY IS SOON...

broke up with my husband...now missing him every minute.
im sick full of shit buggers and throat pain
watched roast of donald trump.. very funny
gonna be minimalist.well already on the way
eating less , less of tv/computer and stuff
more of living
so many things i lost becouse of lazy.
btw im still fat.
tamarin is bugging me.
i want to go to canada and get drunk.

i need to make one.

My hand freeze and feet are cold but I'm hot... something is wrong with circulation
I can't find my keys with gym card and I'm delaying cleaning my closet.
found out Shaggy went to Marines...pretty funny
so whitening teeth today and cleaning and doing my hw...so i can finnaly sleep well.
I have anxiety..
about graduating on time, signing up for air force and picking up phone on unknown phone number.
I better start doing things right.

I miss my simple yet classic brunnete bob..I'm tired of the blonde well it's yellow and too much to take care of..even though it is sexy...and the lenght is better for my chubby face and big boobs.
as soon as I loose weight and sign up for air force I will cut my hair..
can't wait.

If he makes time to smoke some pot with a guy he like only becouse of his status and weed
If he yells at you
If he blames everything that goes wrong in your life
If he controls you
If he physically pushes on you
If he forces you to do thing you don't want to do
If he only cares about his feelings
If he only cares about his life
If he only cares about his time
If he only wants you for papers and for someone to be his nanny when he is sick.
Then..



FUCK THAT DOUCHBAG.


Let's get beautifull and delete that mothafucka stress that boys cause

i passed ASVAB I'm happy.
I did it.
I also went upstate with my husband. I found out he applied for another college and that his cousin is coming in the summer, he yelled at me and he doesn't have time for me but he does for Lyosha becouse he has weed.
ASSHOLE.
ASSHOLE.
ASSHOLE.

It's over.

so i got novanet on computer
i got money for moms present..and i have great one in mind
AND I PASSED ASVAB!!!
going to military.eye yeye yeyey.
My sister came yesterday so we went to restuarant.
brrr. gained 3 pounds. but today not eating and going to sauna.
school.
I hvae to get it together.
do all HW in the weekend..but i have to see liza,masha,sasha,seryoga,boris.
well the only person i have to see is seryoga.

blyat.
drinking kefir today since yesterday was a binge.i ate everything sweet there was...my period coming?
maybe that will be an excuse not to go to sauna.ha ha