29.05.09 (Excursion)

Antares Sky is playing.

Downloading new music in my phone. Searching it from old music in pc. Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Antares Sky, Scapegoat, My American Heart, A skylit drive are already in it…

Today I and my friends had a travel. It was study excursion. Nothing special. It was nice, good and without motherfuckers, but I felt myself sorrow. Watched Daggy’s photos at back way and listened TDWP. Rah…

Oh! I’ve met with Chelsea! It was surprisingly at south market’s bus station! She passed exam at “B” point!!! It was mathematic!!! Holy shit! She is smarter then little Evan! Very good! Proud of her!

Next two days I will have 6 lessons per day. It means 9 hours of study! Hell no!!! Oh, yeah… From 8am till 6pm. Holy Christ I hate my life! The stupidest time spending in the world. Also this motherfucker could take his bitch in our lessons… Why? I’ll make it, if I was him. I made it, when I was him. Heh… Rah… Hate my life…

I need to sleep. So few hours till sunrise… So few powers in my thin emo body…

A Vain Attempt is playing… “You broke my heart and you broke my life too”… Heh, so stupid lyrics and music, but enjoyable.

Today I played tratatata… My legs are getting stronger. I must be the best drummer in a world! Yahoo!

I haven’t cut my arms by several months! A half of the year I guess. Crazy. I’m in deepest depression ever, but don’t hurt myself. Medicines and stomach-killing by it doesn’t count. Crazy. Rah…

Fuck. Gonna sleep.
Which dick I need to suck to be happy?

Goodnight diary.
I pray my dreams come true.
I pray, I pray, I pray