...he does not talk any more to me...he any more does not want me to know...
Features, it is not fair...

I do not know as to express the ideas here.. To me it is now very bad and it would be desirable to cry, probably it is everything, probably I can not speak with him any more, probably he will forget me, and fault to all who? That person which to me has spoiled all, who is unimportant it and what for I write all this, but as it is a diary I write... Still this silly song which reminds of him and forces to shed a few tears. Earlier I even suspect not could that I shall to communicate with this person but so always while I with whom that shall not quarrel, normally to communicate I shall not start... It is a silly post, and not all will understand him, not all I know well English... I very much miss on this person, I do not have opportunities with him to communicate, you do not think, it not change to my guy, simply this person became very good friend for me, but then all has failed as one performance at theatre, and it is a pity, I even to not think that all will leave again not for my advantage.. .. Probably there is nothing I all this has written, simply did not know where all this to write, did not know about what to think.. Simply all this forces me to cry... And I sit and I pay... Probably there is nothing, but other way is not present, I have simply decided to be cried, suddenly to me it becomes easier?

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