I can't live like this anymore...I love him...This love is impossible,I know,but sometimes I think that this is nevermind...Can't and don't want live like this...

I saw "Spring nicht"...All my friends,who has seen it,said,that this is very good video...As for me...I know,it's only a very good installation,I saw,how they made this clip,but...when I saw how he was falling...I couldn't constrain my tears...I cryed for all video...When I saw he runs,I whispered "Rette mich"...He was so beautiful...It seemed to me that he looks there like the bird...look at this...
I love him...I know,it's silly,but this is true...
...I want to say him,that I love him,but he won't say "I love you too",because he doesn't know,that I'm existing in this world...Yet does not know...
I don't know,why I wrote all this in English...May be,it's simply for me?I don't know...Too much pain for me...I wrote some words for him..."You ask me "Scream!",and I'm screaming,ask "Rescue me",and I'm rescuing you in my dreams...Ask me "Help me fly",and I give you my wings...But if you'll ask me "Don't jump",I won't know,what to do...because I love you so much..."
I can't live like this anymore...I love him...