I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it’s age old pain,
It’s ancient tale of being apart or together.
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,
Clad in the light of a pole-star, piercing the darkness of time.
You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers,
Shared in the same shy sweetness of meeting,
the distressful tears of farewell,
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

Today it is heaped at your feet, it has found its end in you
The love of all man’s days both past and forever:
Universal joy, universal sorrow, universal life.
The memories of all loves merging with this one love of ours -
And the songs of every poet past and forever.

~Rabindranath Tagore

"the second i close my eyes is the second i instantly see your face. i also find my self longing for more, shutting my eyes tighter but the day dreams arent good enough. imagination cant take your place. and to say that i'm missing you baby, is to tell only a little fragment of the truth. i'm missing you like crazy. i feel incomplete without you, without your touch, without you sweet smell. there no way to deny i'm dying inside. i got nothing left to loose but i'm taking day by day. pretending i'm doing ok when i find it hard to breathe without you by my side. i virtually have to grasp for air everything the thoughts of you being far away from me hits me. have you ever imagined what the sky would be without the sun. what the world will be without life. you cant even begin to imagin cos thats how i feel right now. baby i miss you beyond WORDS!"

... my choco bear is a living proof of that.

WTF!!!
i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed off! how come when people work they don't get anything out of it! pay your job pledge, pay for books, pay for other international students to come and than live on $28 per month, are you fucking kidding me!
u.s. gov. bitch system! fuck you unequal equality rights! fucking stupid bitch! hate this place, hate this miserable life!

even sweet dark chocolate cannot satisfy me. i tried and i'll try again with him. as a bonus: kc trips almost every weekend, shopping w/o cashing, drinking w/o limit, dancing, parting and "that" too!
i cannot believe i switch to dark chocolate!
but no blames for new experience.
p.s.

well it didn't last long.
sorry for your incapability of making friends, not my fault thou.

new story:
ones upon a time... she was a devil in a flash, he was her angel. no matter what she did, he would always be there for her. but evil could not exist without punishment, so he had to kill her. but it was not the end, it was just a new beginning. because she loved him and because their love was as pure as it can be, she was reborn as a human. because he loved her, he gave up his wings and became human too. and that's when the story continues...

p.s.

strawberry tea with milk chocolate and your huge bright smile)
don't play this game w me, i'll win it anyway.
my orange bear, u can be shy, impulsive and romantic at the same time. i simple cannot read u ...yet...but i'm a good student)
p.s. it is good when your liabilities = your assets!