Today is third day already. it is been five days since my father died.((( I cant stil believe that happened to me. It is always like this-You live in this world and dont think about lossing your relatievs and when it happens ....it is too late.It is too late to change smg. He is there , never thought he died one day. very short life. Me and my sister knew that his life was very hard-he loved us very much and everything we did we did it to make him happy. Just wanted to make his life better. He ll never play with his grandkids , us anymore, as much as he wanted. Very sad((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
When I was told about it, i didnt want to write anything in the diary because It seemed like all my thoughts mixed up and i didnt know what to write in it.I could not start with smg...I berely could control my mind .The only action i dd-it was crying and crying. The person who has ever gone throug that will understand me.