i never thought the day would come!!! wow, no more fake ID. no more worrying. i am legal baby! so thats exciting, but... i don't know what it is about birthdays that just gives me the worst anxiety. i can honestly say i'm a pretty emotionally stable person as of now. but EVERY year, without fail, i have some sort of crazy emotional breakdown around my birthday. i never want to do anything to celebrate. the thought of trying to make plans and HOPE everyone shows up just makes my stomach turn...this year we're not celebrating my birthday, but rather celebrating "not having to use my fake ID anymore". i don't know if it's just being afraid of being disappointed, or let down, or ditched, or what. i don't know what it is. ugh...i always just feel like something is missing around my birthday.

well, i'm trying my best to not be an anxious wreck, and just enjoy the wonderful life i live! my madre and padre are coming up to LA tomorrow to take me shopping. and you bet your ass i'm ordering a cocktail at lunch, too!

also, TRUTH commercials are so gay.



ps:

PLEASE tell me someone used to watch bananas in pajamas. god, i used to LOVE this show!